Maegwin - Diary for June, 2000
 

Aerathis is gone.

Doesn't that just take the cake.  Well, it's definitely the worst week of my life.  And it does point out something to me.

The family hates outsiders.

Here the Kappellans are trying to say how untrustworthy I am about me hiding my involvement with dragons.  But when a shadow with dragons is destroyed, do they say anything?  No.

Hypocrites.

And Haven.

Here I am trying to hold my own little tribute to the 80's.  I even stay indoors so I don't piss anyone off.  I love how they're saying I insulted the Red Wolf.  Kelric, buy a clue.  Please.  You've got the money.  At least your mommy does.

And Jason.  What to do.. what to do?  Ches has forbidden me to take vengence on you.  As if Ches could tell me what to do right now.  He's going to find it very hard to get me near the throne of Rebma right now.  Which is what he's been trying to do for months.

Do I want to end up like Morgaine?

I don't think so.

Ches is going to have two Rebmas on his hands very soon, by the look of things.  Problem is, he's been letting Merith get undermined.  Hoping I'll step up to the plate.  Problem is, with Aerathis gone, I owe no loyalty to Axis.  Or to Rebma.

To Ches?  I don't know.  He's so closed.  I can't even tell if he thinks of me as a grandaughter or as a family asset.  If only he'd quit with the games.  Haven probably would have worked out if he hadn't reacted and sent in the troops.  All I had to do was set up the situation as a political one, and I could have walked down to the police station with Max.

Instead, Ches sends in the troops, they get squished, and I get clobbered.

And a lot of Rebmans die.

Figures.

Jason didn't get it.  Art's already demanded me tried as an abyss hag.  That's why there's a diplomatic crisis between Storm Watch and Axis right now.  I had to make it political as quick as possible.  That way I wouldn't dissapear on the way to the police station.

Of course it was Haven territory.  I'm not an idiot.

But who was the idiot who decided to send Storm Watch onto Axis property?  That was a no brainer if I ever saw one.

I'll forgive Jason the anchovies.  But we're going to have to talk about Aerathis.  Sooner or later.

Maybe I should be more devoted to the people of Rebma.  But the family has taught me this week that shadow people are infinitely expendable.  At least to them.

Good luck with Rebma, Ches.  I'd make Gwyn govenor of New Rebma.  He's smarter about family than I am, but he needs to learn to read you like I do in order to make it.

I hope he does.

I'm off for deep shadow, now.  All I have to do walk the Pattern, and I'm outta here.

But I'll be back.  Don't worry about that.